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Check yourself (in your brain)
| Won't go into detail on what it was, but I just want this out there as a reminder to you g/u/rls, that thoughts and ideas in your head you don't normally think twice about sometimes shouldn't be there
Especially if you got OCD or a lot of trauma or anything else that brings with it intrusive thoughts of any kind, go through your brain and double check some of your ideas of how the world works and how you view yourself
Fact check that shit so you don't hurt yourself on it later
| I have OCD and I suffer from intrusive thoughts triggered by simple words randomly. Yet I don't understand what you mean by "intrusive thoughts slipping through filtering". Can you give an example? Maybe share your intrusive thoughts if you wish
| Ok
| I know g/u/rl, I'm also a Pomu
| Obsessive thoughts...Hmm. I even wondered if I had any specific obsessive thoughts.
I guess not. Of course there are oddities, but we all have our own quirks.
| Ah, I remembered. I remember on the worst days, standing on the platform, I thought about how to step in front of the train. But I thought it was very painful and it drove me away.
| >>974410
What I mean is that usually I'm very good at distinguishing between intrusive thoughts and my own, since obviously they conflict with my own views and morals. So as I go through the day I can filter my thoughts into real and intrusive, and ignore the intrusive ones
But sometimes they're a bit more sneaky and subtle, and I don't always realise how ridiculous and conflicting with my views they are because of their "subtle wording" so to speak
| For example, the one's I just discovered had slipped through and planted themselves were related to intimacy. They painted certain actions I do during intimate moments, and to a degree the desire for intimacy, as predatory. It used examples of abusive people I've known/seen/heard about to paint some of my own completely normal actions as predatory without me realising how absurd that was. That then led to me being very passive in interactions with my partner out of fear of being
| abusive. They started out subtle and kept justifying themselves so much that I thought they were my own thoughts, and it took me months to realise how absurd of a thing it was because I never checked myself
>>974479
Maybe? I've never done that, cause the psychiatric system here barely even knows what OCD is and whenever you tell them any intrusive thoughts they write it down as if they were your real thoughts and use it against you later. That's not an exaggeration
| Lmao
| >I haven't had depression and shit in ages
Damn, good for you, g/u/rl. Depression is just something I live with.
I just lean on my close friends and family to keep me anchored mentally. I'm pretty good about not letting intrusive thoughts get to me, but it's better if you have someone to help you out.
| >>974527
For sure! A solid support system is how I eventually managed to get out of it. Can't say it's fully gone (mental issues don't magically disappear) but it's reduced to very short periods of time if I do experience it, but even those are less and less frequent now
I wish you the best of luck!! Sounds like you're doing a good job so far <3
| Ok boomer
| So true op, thanks for reminding me. I am serious.
| That s a long trip but hey, you d scream again, i guess.
Guess you dont like that much noises too huh, autists?
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| Just had a really big breakthrough mentally, and it came very unexpected. I haven't had depression and shit in ages and I'm generally pretty good at weeding out and handling my intrusive thoughts, so I thought I was good mentally. Turns out some really bad intrusive thoughts had slipped through my filtering and planted themselves deep into my brain
Sometimes the shit you have in your brain daily and seems normal really isn't, at all. You gotta check yourself on that regularly