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Guilt
| I listen people but i barely can say anything.. i did terribly closed.. and i feel that i can't say anything.. Little bit as girl from game At Home Alone.. At month ago i was hospitalised in asylum for few days.. i did talked to her because i was scared.. and i feel emotionally still attached to her.. i was little bit selfish, but i needed small contact with anyone.. and i feel that she would never judge me.. but i have feel that i abuse her :x i really didn't want be annoying
| Recent 2 weeks she was offline.. And i'm worrying if she is ok.. my ignorance me would probably won't care.. but few her online friends did start to worrying about her too.. and it's made me a lot worrying.. in past she was trying about suicide.. around 10% of suicide attemps are deadly, so i was "ok" because i just believe math.. but now i feel little bit guilt feeling.. because i did burned everything what was behind..
| Over that i'm worrying about her few days, i didn't even try to contact her on any platforms.. If she tried about suicide, i don't want make her feel worse, and if not.. i still don't want make her feel worse :( i don't even know what i would tell her.. or what i would talk about with her.. If she commited it successfully, i don't know.. i'm out of words.. My mind is confused and blank
| Are you me? It seems we're in the same situation
| Can you explain me what kind of life you need live to think like this?
| Most peepz just want to know they're cared about. Consider showing your peepz that you care about them.
| Don't forget to exercise for at least 30 minutes each day. If you feel bad every day and you're not doing this, you're not even giving yourself an honest chance. You don't have to do all the 30 minutes at the same time but try to get around 30 minutes of panting/sweating every day.
If you don't exercise you won't clear your body of toxic protein buildups which effects mood and brainfunctions.
| >>939903 maybe, honestly i post here because i feel that it's only "social platform" where i can identify with most of people
>>939905 i have no idea
>>939910 i feel that i will going to type her
>>939953 honestly i don't believe in things as exercies, praying, self-motivation vids, drink water etc. I just feel they are meme. I just laught it same as to wikihow. But thank you for trying
| I feel scared about her i will really going to contact her..
| She is offline on Kik.. she may uninstalled app, her phone is down, offline or so.. It was few days like this probably at least..
| I'm going to eat.. and hope.. i will maybe try google some things...
| I just randomly memoried one story.. years ago we played pubg together little often.. and once we played in squad with one of her friends.. but about one person i felt little jealous.. i was terribly passive agressive and i did friendly fire and killed him.. i don't even remember why.. just i did.. she did asked me if anything bad happened.. he was mad to me little.. he wasn't bad.. she just asked me if anything bad happened.. i said no.. than we played usually just in duos..
| It is random moment, but years later he committed suicide... She felt sad about him.. i believe they was close.. but when i just think about some moments and more i think about past.. i just somehow see moments when i was toxic.. or didn't act right..
| He once contacted me when she left Steam and told me that i should have bring her back.. i somehow felt that i shouldn't have mess in people decisions.. so i told him that i'm not sure about it.. and just told him that i don't feel that we should.. he was mad and confused to me.. me.. i felt sad of course.. but i didn't made any action.. i just talked with her without forcing her to use Steam.. after weeks she returned there.. but i don't remember clearly why..
| But probably not because of me.. i just feel bad that i contacted her after 2-3 weeks when people started to worrying about her.. over that i just saw it.. i didn't made anything.. but when i saw messages from few people.. i just started to worrying..
I had wet eyes after years.. not crying.. but.. my emotions are messed up now.. over that i wasn't in contact with her for long.. she is my favourite person:(
| Honestly i did whole time.. but i'm scared about her now:(
| Who asked?
| >>940326 I don't care if you asked or not, i just feel need to share it
>>940328 it's somehow nice from you tbh
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| I wished her happy new year.. i wasn't talk with her much recent 3 years.. over that i think about her daily i just don't feel strong enough to talk with her.. recent years i did just closed myself in room, and playing games what i didn't enjoy anymore.. the truth is that is nothing interesting happening around me, i don't care about myself well and so.. Also i didn't finish my university yet.. i will must to in few months if i don't want drop it.. but my mind is just quiet