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I realised something important
| He not only told me it would greatly affect him, but also so many others, and I started crying for the first time in years.
I was still talking with that first friend, and the things she said made me realise that people genuinely care about me, even though it didn't feel like it.
My purpose in life has mainly been to live for the sake of my friends, friends who I thought I didn't have. That's when I realised I had gone two months feeling like I had no reason to live at all.
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| I'm sharing this because I feel like I can be a warning to others. I was lucky enough to have two incredible friends who I happened to message at around the same time and who happened to snap me out of it, and even that was after two months of feeling no real joy at all.
If you are feeling bad, be careful and make sure you find someone to talk to about it, or talk to someone close about it. Maybe even get a therapist. Because I got dangerously close to wanting to end my life.
| *opening calendar*
*Trying find 2015*
Watch, here it's started! And...
*Trying move to 2011*
And somewhere there i had first suspicious!
| those friends pr
| Wow you have some good friends, I was in a very simmilar situation, but when I reached for help they all dropped out, I had to go trough it alone
| >>667197 not really, I really feel lonely from time to time, I've made new friends but they are way younger then me, not going to college nor working, I feel like a loser, in the end I'm just the wierd mix of the smart, the wierd and the quiet kid I was in high school, yeah I know thats an unholy mix but thats who I am, kinda wish bullies and normies didnt exist
| >>667202
Ay. Don't go talking shit about that unholy mix. That shit describes me a uncomfortably well. Also, you truly are strong. Feeling lonely is not your fault, and having friends that are younger than you is not a bad thing.
-OP
| i have no frens
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| An hour ago I realised that during the last two or so months I lost my reason to live. As in, I seem to have had depression so bad it bordered on suicidal.
I was venting to one of my best friends about how I felt unwanted and neglected by my friends, a feeling I only had because of anxiety, but couldn't shake.
Then I messaged one of my other best friends, basically asking if my death would matter if I were to kill myself. He never expresses his emotions, but this time he did.