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How is everyone today?
| Been drinkin all niggt
Now work shift
Never gonna learn
| Feeling terrible. My head feels like it's being torn apart and each time I try to think it's like someone scrambles my thought.
I occasionally have days like this, but this is like the third day in the row, fuck it.
At least I'm basically on break so there's no work I have to do right now.
| I guess I'm alright. I miss my friends, I'm a little sick, I don't know how to manage my money between tobacco, caffeine and hobbies, but I've been doing some creative stuff lately and playing some Smash online, so I'll be ok.
| Just realized I suck at Tekken and have reverted back to For Honor. At least Centurion will always be my man. Other than that - swell.
| Kinda irritated by a lump in my throat that's not going away for a couple weeks now. Apparently it's just lymphoid/scar tissue after tonsillectomy I had a few years back, so at least there doesn't seem to be anything dangerous going on, but it's annoying as FUCK.
Otherwise just bored and tired at work. Not having any work sucks because then I have nothing to do at the office, having work sucks because, well, I have to work. I'd rather stay home playing vidya, but a job's a job.
| Could be better. Distraction is at an all time high, and my sleeping habits have been shot to hell, which is worsening said distraction.
I'm hoping I can fix it before the end of this week, but it's becoming a weekly cycle. :/
| Beer, from decade to this one.
| It feels, like I blinked, and when I opened my eyes, January passed by. Slipped through my fingers.
Here I am, applying on jobs, with last pack of cigarettes, without money. Yeah, I have roof over my head and food, but
I feel like bag full of shit OP. Not only, but a bag in a wrong place, at a wrong time doing wrong things, incapable of doing right things.
Thanks for a thread, love you.
| life sucks
| Probably contracted coronavirus, I have been coughing all week long
| Obsessing over my internet past. I hate the person I used to be and I can't stop worrying that someone will bring something up to embarrass me.
The stress I feel is so disproportionate I almost wish that the doomsday scenario happened so I could finally get over it.
| >>622019
Aw. I'm sorry bro. If it helps, know that if people judge you for being cringy years ago, they're just assholes. Everyone hates looking through and thinking about the shit they've said and done. There have been times where I've read through old threads that I posted in on this board and hated myself, but know that even if someone were to find it, it's in the past. Viewing that person as someone other than yourself helps a lot, since, well, you are a different person now.
| eh, could be better.
I think I have a serious case of OCD/phone addiction and it's difficult to deal with, even with apps that lock down other apps and forced self exile.
| >>622036
>>622107
I worry a lot less about more serious IRL things. But the internet is permanent and finding things on it is trivial, so I feel paralysed.
>>622120
I worry about text posts on image boards, if I had social media I would go insane. It's ruining my life.
>>622107
Did you get diagnosed with anything? I never told my therapist about this but if I had schizophrenia it would have come up, right?
| >>622148
Why do you think you have schizophrenia? I know a fair amount about the topic as I've been suspected to have psychosis and that kind of stuff.
| Not too good. I think one of my cats is sick and she's been running and hiding in different corners of the house, which makes it near impossible for me to get her to do a check up. I am kind of worried, will see what I can do later. Found four feral kittens trapped inside an empty shop for probably a couple of days already. Good thing is that I was able to contact a strictly no-kill animal shelter group which agreed to come to help rescue the kittens tonight. Wish me luck!
| >>622148 i have aspergers which is why i have always misunderstood how is the right way to act to be accepted by everyone. Thats why my life has been a cringe compilation
| >>622172
my life has been a cringe compilation too so if we sat together in a room nobody would be able to over-judge the other
| >>622172
To be honest I find asperger's kinda charming. I feel like it's just kinda pure in a weird way. Like, not picking up on social cues and stuff just feels kinda innocent, you know?
| >>622189
It's not. I have a homie with asperger's, and he's just awesome. I just find his attitude and some of the stuff he does as symptoms of asperger's really wholesome, even though most of it is pretty scuffed.
| >>622151
Heavy paranoia is a hallmark of psychosis, I feel very disconnected and I've got a bunch of compulsive behaviors, so I suspect I might be headed that way.
It could be just really severe depression taking its toll, I've been battling that for most of my life.
| >>622210
It could be, yeah, but I agree that it sounds like you're developing something. You should get help asap, because this type of shit is extremely dangerous. It doesn't really sound like schizophrenia, but it does sound like something on the psychosis spectrum.
| >>622213
>You should get help asap
I don't have the money nor the strength to go through this again. If I had any purpose left in me I'd put up a fight, but there's nothing worth preserving.
I'm scared but maybe I just have to accept it.
Sorry for hogging all this attention, I hate when people turn threads into their mental illness diaries but lately I do it so often.
| well. on a worse note: here's an update on SCarY CorONa ViRus. Here in my area the diaease just started. hopefully it will be contained in may and die down from there. been wearing a mask all the time and feel dizzy:) yesterday I went to buy rice but there literally ain't any. people are panicking way too much. also unrelated but I lowkey cannot show much facial expression without the bottom of my face so everyone thinks I am uninterested and bored.
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| Hey g/u/rls! I'm back again, except posting this very late at night!- or early in the mornimg? Either way, the day's just started for me, but yesterday I threw up because I ate too much food. Also there's an annoying light outside that I can't block while I'm trying to sleep, but whatever. How are the rest of you all doing?