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Just need to get this out
| then, finally, one of my other friends asked,
>"are you okay?"
this is where i started asking if maybe i'm being too nice, maybe i'm overextending my patience, maybe i'm being abused.
i always say "fuck this i'm out" but then i'm always being pulled back. i'm sometimes having fun yknow. cautiously having fun.
| but then, it's them who are "protecting" me from others. they consider me as their friend. if i really went and just left them (which i think is impossible) i would be "vulnerable". it's be with them or be an outsider.
| i hope i'm not being too edgy. i think i'm fine, life is generally going okay. it just stresses me out a lot when i think about it. i could just get myself used to it and be golly jolly, but i don't think i can keep that act up.
help me /u/
what do i do
| I was in the same situation before. And I cut ties with everyone in the end. If the abuse hurts you then cut your ties with em. You are the master of your world, remember that. And don't be afraid, you think it's bad now, but if things get worse you will survive it without harm and learn from it. Don't be afraid of being alone, in the end you are the only thing which will last till you die. Ofc there will be people on your way to support you, but in the end you should try to be 1/?
| your best friend. Love yourself, be proud of yourself and fullfil every role you seek in others in yourself. Look after yourself and with everything you have left help others. If you don't look after yourself nobody will. Don't be afraid of any decisions you will take, you will learn from it, there are no false decisions.
Don't waste your time on bad people. 1. If you spend time people you become like them and they become like you. 2. You could use your time so much better. 2/?
| Don't think your thoughts or feelings aren't valid. If you do you could go down a crazy rabbit hole. And hey, even from that one can learn.
And always remember suicide is an option, just not now, you have so many things to try out and to do. So many more years to waste and live. Just don't be afraid, the peace and happiness comes from your mind within, not from outside sources like people or material things. 3/3
| OP, your "friend" is showing common signs of controlling, manipulative behavior and "grooming." That is definitely abuse.
Take the anon's advice and drop them immediately. Don't take shit like that from anyone.
| Well, except for the suicide part.
| Wow, yeah. "suicide is an option". Woah there. Technically yeah, but once you have it in your mind that it's a valid option things go to shit. I think I would know, I live my life everyday thinking about that option. It's not a good life, and I'm stuck in a spiral.
| The spiral all began when I thought, "If life ever gets to the point where I absolutely can't handle it, I'll do it"
| For me personally the idea that suicide is an option is a freeing thought. Because non of this is necessary, but it's my decision to live through it. It's not life, or other people fucking with me, it's me who decides to live through it. I could kill myself, but why don't I do it? Because to be honest I want to have a good life, even if it's not easy. 1/?
| Even if at times I don't try to have a Good life because I don't have no energy for it, or just no will. Even if, or when the hope died, I'm still here suffering. But not only suffering, also having beautiful moments, I, you, everyone has to just recognise them. Even if everything is objectively speaking shit, you can have beautiful moments. And that's life, a cruel joke, a timespan of madness with sprinkles of good. 2/?
| I don't think that as soon as you recognize that suicide is an option that things go to shit. I think that for most people things go to shit before they recognise that suicide is an option.
I personally think the recognition of suicide is more a philosophical thing, which can help you to come out of your misery(+self reflection and thinking in general). 3/?
| I personally think that most people who think about suicide want to have a good life, not to be dead.
And when you can't handle your life try something else, you have so many possibilities. You can try a psychiatry, medicine, going to another city (search work there), go to a third world country hippie commune, squad in empty homes, search a new hobby, etc.
And yeah I know it isn't easy. 4/?
| But suicide isn't easy either. The question is how do you want to use your energy, killing yourself or trying something new? It's your decision, and if you rly want to kill yourself nobody can stop you. But I think most people just feel alienated in this world and lack something in life, through which they explore the possibility of killing themselves. 5/5
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| this is about someone, how they treat me. lately i've been wondering if what they're doing is "abuse" or it's just normal. when we first met it was alright, then as we get to know more about each other they started getting a little too "close". they started insulting me "playfully" in front of others, started forcing things, and even hitting me. i always give in, for various reasons. even my other friends started doing the same.