I think I'm mentally fucked

| I keep feeling like there are things outside and in the shadows that are going to kill me. I keep scratching and biting myself and punching my walls. I keep seeing silhouettes of people and creatures in the corner of my eyes. I get bad anxiety out of nowhere and images of killing people close to me, strangers and pets sometimes flash in my head when looking at them.

I think I'm mentally fucked and I'd really appreciate some advice.

| go see a phycaitrist Immediatly, You need medication and help before it gets worse.

| Yeah. See a psychiatrist, op. This is too serious to ask on the internet

| >>588815 >>588817
I'm seeing one soon. I'm set up on a list to get in at one. Is it really that serious though? Like, it's obviously not good, but immediately?

| Could be scizophrenia. Definitely not something one can tackle alone. Just ignore whatever you see or feel. Ignoring it might be something you'll have to learn to lead a normal life. I don't know shit, so don't get overly intimidated.

| >>588822
Yeah, I know. I have a lot of schizophrenia symptoms, but I'm not sure if it's that. I try to ignore the stuff, but it's rather intrusive, and I don't really control the scratching and stuff before a second or two of doing it.

| Sounds normal to me.

| sounds like Paranoid Schizophrenia. I have Schizoaffective disorder so I can relate somewhat. Definitely go to the doc and it'll get somewhat better. Somewhat. You also need to learn to manage somethings bc there's no such thing as a "cure" unfortunately. Good luck g/u/rl

| Be vigilant and be safe buddy. I hope the best outcome from the therapy soon.

| >>588844 >>588847
Thank you.

| >>588844
Huh, no. I don't think it's paranoid schizophrenia. I don't feel like people are watching me. I feel like something that doesn't exist, monster like creatures, sometimes do, but not people. I also don't have any voices. "Hallucinations" aren't really a thing either. I definitely see things in the corner of my eyes, but trying to look at them head on doesn't work as they just dissapear. I've only had one thing I could look at properly.

| For real, until you see a specialist, just ignore and refocus on something else. Some time later it'll be easier for you and all this won't repeat as often

| Tulpa.info

| >>588940
That's good. I'll try to ignore it until then.

| I may be going to a specialist sooner than expected. Hopefully it'll help.

| Best of luck, op!

| May the force be with you.

| Thanks.

| Good luck man.

Care to keep us updated if you can?

| >>589403
Sure. I talked with a doctor today and he's going to either send me to a therapist who will send me to therapists who are more specialized or send me straight to the specialized ones. So I'll probably be seeing someone next week, which is also the first week of school.

| Well, it's a start. Gotta begin somewhere. Stay strong man

| >>589576
Thank you. I'll try.

| I'll go slightly more into detail about this stuff just to vent and in case anyone is interested. I'll start with delusions.

Basically, I'm fucking delusional. I don't really believe any of the delusions, I know that they're, well, delusions, but it doesn't really help. At times I feel like I'm in a movie. Well, not really. It's more like I'm on a movie set, but there's no movie being filmed, and nothing except for that movies set (the walls around me) exists.

| There are also delusions that come along with the creatures and stuff I see in the corner of my vision. Sometimes I'll see something, either humanoid or creature like moving for example past a door, between trees, in the living room, stuff like that.

And sometimes, I get this feeling that tells me the movements and locations of those creatures. If I see something, I occasionally know where that creature is now, or I feel one of them moving up behind me and know which one it is.

| Luckily they don't talk. I'm not that far down. That doesn't mean they aren't pieces of shit though. They tend to stay away of I'm in a good mood though, which is nice, but a good mood can be difficult to get in when my emotions are sometimes drastically decreased, close to non-existent (aside from the feelings of anxiety, those don't disappear along with the rest).

Nicotine helps, but it doesn't hit everything. If I'm bad, they're still there, just slightly easier to ignore.

| I can have days though, like the last few ones, or most of the days last week, where the symptoms aren't really that noticeable, not that prominent. I can also have a week straight though, where I'm completely fucked, which happened around a month ago.

When I'm that bad there's just a constant stream of delusions and anxiety, and my imagination starts feeding me tons and tons of scenarios about the world not existing, me being a murderer and just weird, fucked shit.

| I hope you don't mind the ranting. It feels good to talk about it.

| >>589791
I read all of it and I hope it will help you get some peace of mind.

| >>589795
Hehe, thank you. It will.

| I like reading stuff like that. Getting to see someones direct perspective of stuff like that is really interesting.

Good thing that you perceive the monsters/humans in a way that you know it's fabricated. Looking at the signs and judging from the outside helps you dismiss problematic things easier.

And since you use nicotine to calm yourself down, be careful. In this case, consuming too much nicotine won't reduce the symptoms even more, but rather brings more long term problems.

| Using certain drugs in small doses is helpful. But overdoing it can be dangerous

| i also feel this way. yesterday i went to my backyard and saw a random dog by my plants. keep in mind, there's absolutely no way a dog could get in my backyard, there's no fences or anything. that a dog could crawl under. i went to my living room to catch my keys and open my backyard door, and the dog was gone. i felt very weird for the rest of the day. hope this isn't the beginning for something worse ;_;

>sibyl knobs medic

| >>589867
Yeah. It's lucky that I know they're not real, but in the moment it doesn't really help. It's good for my overall sanity though.

>>589867 >>589868
Yeah. I try to not use it unnecessarily.

That's definitely weird, but doesn't mean anything. It could have been an actual dog. If you keep seeing things that aren't real, that's a problem, but you shouldn't worry. Even if it was an hallucination, one time is not a problem, and you don't have any other symptoms.

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