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| I've been feeling kind of fucked for the last week or so, and today I felt like I was about to cry multiple times both at home and in public and just felt fucking horrible.

I realized that it's probably (definitely) anxiety, and as I'm lucky enough to never have had to deal with shit like this before I would really appreciate some advice on how to handle it.

I talked a little with one of my friends and listened to some music, and that helped a lot, but I can't do that forever.

| Well as someone with frequent anxiety the one thing that helps me the most is having a heart to heart with someone I trust
A few years ago "someone I trust" was my crush but things went horribly bad and the only thing between me and the life of a hikikomori NEET was my pride telling me that I had to help my family financially
It may sound very weird but nowadays "someone I trust" is my manager, he is a great guy who helps me all the time both professionally and personally

| >>567179
Thank you. I think I'll try to do that. I want to do that. I should do that. I feel like I could probably have a conversation like that with some of my friends, or maybe my mom. Thank you.

| >>567174 that sounds more like depression than anxiety... why were you feeling so bad, because you were really worried about something? They often go together of course, but just the way you described it, sounds like classic depression symptoms.

| >>567188
I'm worried about something. That's what I realized. But I can't really stop worrying. It's not really social anxiety as I'm not scared of people or anything, but I think it's anxiety. If it's depression, that would be fucked. I hope it isn't. But yeah, I'm worried.

| just dont. thats how I do it

| I've got a fair bit of the symptoms listed when I search for anxiety. Trouble sleeping, trouble concentrating, feeling weak and tired, feeling nervous and restless. Some other stuff too.

I just checked some of the symptoms for depression, and they don't fit nearly as well if at all.

I know self diagnosis is dangerous, but when it fits that well it should be correct.

| >>567197 it was just a thought... you know better than me. What are you worried about? Why do you say you hope it isn't depression like that's a terrible thing? Not that it isn't, it can be, but anxiety can be just as bad. Also, like I said, the two are often related. You would probably be prescribed antidepressants anyway, because they can help with both, and it's much better to treat anxiety with methods of releasing it than with anti-anxiety meds...

| >>567200
What I'm worried about. Fuck. I talked about it a little on another thread, but there i talked about it kind of casually. But I realized that that's most likely the thing giving me this anxiety. I'm confused about it, but think I may be a pedophile. I'm 16, so as I'm not yet fully developed I wouldn't know for sure, but I think I might be. I haven't felt attraction to kindergarteners or some shit, but I've felt it towards kids that are 10-11 years old, and I hate it.

| I'm scared that I will continue feeling this affection when I'm 17, 18, 19 or an adult. I have friends who I know would still support me, but it still scares me. It's not only that. I watch loli too. That alone I was fine with. But when I realized I actually liked kids around that age IRL too (I'm never really close to kids, so I probably just didn't notice) I thought I was ok with it. But I'm starting to think otherwise. Fuck, I'm ranting. I'm sorry, but it feels good to get it out.

| >>567205 I suppose we may be talking at the moment in the other thread... about therapy and etc... sorry that it's so stressful :c

It's good to accept what you're feeling, and it's good that you can say it out loud... even if you're Anon. First thing, okay, let's try to think about it... it seems like you are panicking, but what you are talking about 17, 18, adult, is a long time from now, so think about right now, not these things years from now. You're OK right now, you've done

| nothing illegal (loli, ok, grey area at best, but nothing to get excited about), and you've got lots and lots of time. I think I said in other thread, but now is the best time for working on something like this. It's not set in stone, I don't care what people say about being born with it or whatever. People are born being prone to alcoholism, but that doesn't mean they *must* be an alcoholic. Learn about it, about yourself, about what kind of people actually sex abuse kids...

| and keep talking about it. The less shame and guilt you force on yourself, the easier it will be to deal with. Just focus on where you are now, somewhere safe, with a lot of life ahead of you... trust me, there are worse things that can happen in your life.

| >>567222
Yeah. Thank you. Genuinely, thank you. You've helped me calm down a lot.

I guess my biggest problem isn't really self loathing, but not being accepted by others. The same logic still applies of course, and there is a bit of the former as well.

But it's a long time. Fuck. It really is. Maybe I'll be able to sleep properly tomorrow. It's been over a week since I slept at least decently.

| >>567227 o_o I hope you can sleep. You're welcome (I'm glad you feel better). Just focus on the facts and know that you have lots of options. You have power and control because there are definite things you can do, steps you can take. Doesn't have to be today... or tomorrow, just let it go and you'll know when you're ready. I always try to force myself into things, but it never works. Then suddenly something pops up, or I just find myself doing whatever it was, Hakuna Matata haha

| >>59b427
Fuck dude. You helped me so much yesterday. After you helped me calm down a bit I did some research, and it seems like I was having a full on panic attack. I've been feeling really bad today too, but reading your replies calms me down a lot. Thank you.