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I feel pathetic
| He called me a stoic person...but how can I see him at the face like this? My arm broken, no Job, no money, and powerless, it's almost a year since he died...f*ck
| My brother died seven years ago, i know what youre going thru
He was my best friend, more a father to me than my own father who left us sometime before he died.
Be strong, it is what your brother had wished. The world is a harsh place z but we can make it better, i know you can
| Thanks for your reply, tbh I didn't hope someone read this, he was my big brother, our relationship was difficult... he could not accept me for a long time but after that, when he tried to understand me he said he wanted to be like me, accept everything with no harm, I tried to tell him how to look the things of many ways, to flow, to have a open mind, and he was doing it well, I wanted him to grow...but the time stopped
| He hated himself, for his bad life, his sickness, the hurt he caused to the few people he met, he just rejected everything...but sometimes he wanted to change, so I did my best to be a faithful person, so he can see that we can live in this disgusting yet beutiful world, but I failed...we did not have enough time...I wanted to show him a lot more...
| Our fathers abandoned us while ago... that's why I wanted to show him how to live...but I failed...
I don't know if I can change this world, sounds too impossible for me, I whant to be myself again, I when I die I can see him at the face with no regret, that's why I feel pathetic, I don't know how to go back to myself again, how to change my own world once more.
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| How to say it, usually I was a neutral person, nothing made me feel something, I could flow with anything, I could accept anything, the death of my beloved, the goodbye to people who never needed me, my sickness, my loneliness, I could accept it...and keep training my body and mind, I could fight other people with no regret, I felt alive...but since my brother died I'm... broken, like if my years of life didn't help in anything...now I'm emotionally unstable, I can't go forward...