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i act like a retard and a shitposting loser because it's funny
| >implying you only act like one
| Me 2 bud
| Act like a retard so that expectations are low.
| >>421193 tfw i slowly lose interest in things i used to like, live in a quiet part of my country, have no friends except in the UK, sit and think too much about what i wanna do with my fucking life,
>shit GCSE grades
>aspbergers makes me forget often because poor short term memory
| >sat at home after getting frustrated because brain incapable of comprehending shit
>haven't talked to mother since 5pm, only talked to friends and father, both in UK, so it's tough keeping contact with them.
>listening to lofi music because app was gathering dust on my phone
>almost 7pm, haven't turned on lights, sat in darkness writing this
| >>421469
You know, it sounds like you're not retarded, but depressed. Maybe try going to the therapist? It'll definately help, pal, I know that myself, 'cause I was going through the same shit some time ago. I'm receiving a therapy right now, and even though it hasn't been long since I've started it, it gives its results. I have a social anxiety above all the things, and just half a year ago I wasn't even able to write here, on a fucking anonumous board.
| >>421469
You really shouldn't give up on yourself, it's not that late to begin live normally.
I really hope you'll get better eventually, just don't forget, that there's a person somwhere in the Internet that hopes that you'll get over it. I'm with you, g/u/rl!
| >>421481 I did go there some time ago to a cousellor but eventually the decision they made to have a person to keep in contact with me eventually failed. Literally nothing useful has happened since.
I think the problem is my social anxiety is just too great at this point, I usually never start conversations, sometimes ignore calls and generally keep to myself.
I'm not planning on giving up, but it"s just that the situation is a little bit overwhelming for my mind every now n then
| Like in the future I really wanna abandon my mum because she's bad energy for me sometimes. We have too many conflicts for me to consider living with her in the future.
I could move to the UK w/ dad but I can't tell what's gonna happen because everything is pretty fucking tense because brexit, what I'm gonna do if I do move there or if I'll even get somewhere.
| >>421510
Well, that's a really shitty situation. I still think that it would be better for you to go to the psychiatrist. Mental illnes is not something you can deal with yourself, it'll only get worse with the time, especially if you're being under the pression from your mother. Even if your first time at a counselor didn't succeed a lot, you should try visiting another specialist.
| >>421513 In my country (fucking Russia) there're lots of stupid stereotypes about mental illnesses and therapists, and it was really hard for me to find a good professional, but still, I managed to do that. So you should keep looking too, 'cause this shit won't just fade away by itself.
| >>421514 I'll give it a shot with school tomorrow, they're usuamly the ones who deal with this kind of thing first and get into contact with others.
On another note, I had to go full on bouncer on mum because she wouldn't leave me alone and really started getting on my nerves when she decided to lay in the bed with me, I don't mean it in a super weird way, but she just wants to hear what's up but I really dislike people who stick their noses in others' business.
| >>421518 I hear some wild things from russia here and there, but (with all due respect) don't really get involved, I don't see it as my business, so I shouldn't get involved.
| >>421513 First of all, you'll probably get meds, and they really help suppressing anxiety. I wouldn't be able to live without them, because my anxiety produced severe neurosis. But still, complete treatment needs psychotherapy, because if you won't resolve problems that cause your sociophobia in the first place, you'll only treat the symptomps, not the roots of it. And so, once you'll stop taking meds, it'll return again.
| >>421521 nah, fuck this damn country, let's don't talk about that. Don't know what exactly you've heard, but believe me, I can (and will at any convenient opportunity) tell even worse things about it.
| >>421522 when I had autism diagnosis in the UK they determined that my depression wasn't bad enough to prescribe drugs, I'm still happy a good portion of the day.
| Anyways, I hope you'll resolve your problems. I've started treating mine not so long ago, and I really regret a haven't got enough courage to deal with it earlier. There're just so much problems I could've avoided because of that, jeez. So don't delay it for too long, I'm sure you'll eventually regret that too
| >>421525 Well, from what I've heard from you here, you really need meds. Maybe not to cure depression, but social anxiety for sure. I don't really know how it works in a place where you live, because, well, our countries are pretty damn different, but I think any specialist should prescribe it to you. Also, I wouldn't count so much on a school counselor, but then again, they're pretty useless in my country, don't know about yours.
| >>421527 The same goes for you, I wish you'll get over all this stuff. Hope I'll hear from you again, but in a better situation for both of us~
| I ultimately don't know how it'll go though
| >>421536
Maybe you'll be able to write about how it went tomorrow? It would be nice to hear about that, really.
Also, sorry for any mistakes I made during all this conversation, my English is not very good
| >>421555 you could probably reach me on discord if you so wish to, but I'll try to post tomorrow, I could understand your English fine though,
| >>421568 oh, well, I guess it would be nice to meet in discord, but I gotta warn you, that I literally have no friends and the last time I made new contacts was, I dunno, 5 years ago? Maybe more. So I have no idea how to communicate with people on a regular basis and I may be way to... ..bothersome, I guess? So, don't know if you really need this. But apart from that, I don't mind.
| >>421577 it was just a thought, you don't have to if you don't want to, i'm not forcing it upon you
| >>421607 no no no, I'm definitely not against this! Did that really sound like I do? Damn. In fact, I think I need it even more than you may or may not need it, so I definitely don't mind.
You know what, let's do it like this. Here's my discord contacts, (sullen_grumbler#3418 (THAT NAME IS SUPER SILLY, I KNOW)) if you want to, feel free to hit me up at any moment. If you don't, well, don't, I'll understand that too. Anyways, it's been nice talking to you!
| >>421690 dw, i'm also pretty awkward, i mean, with a tag like shitposter#0001 it's kinda cringe but meh
| No offense OP, but acting like a tard and shitposting doesn't come off as funny to anyone. Perhaps it makes you happy while wondering if it rustles someones jimmies out there, but really it doesn't impact much at all. It just contributes to the chaff and useless garbage blocking interesting posts.
| >>421731 i usually limit reach to friends only either way.
>>421690 I managed to get into contact with someone, I didn't want to escalate the situation (yet), but they will have a talk with her for the time being, I don't really want to take drugs unless really chronic, and it's not at that level.
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