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Vent time
| I'm thinking about quitting danger/u/.
| Maybe.
| At the same time I don't want to. I'm tired of the cycle of finding a new group of friends, being passionate about the community in that new group of friends, and then burning out of it a year or two later and abandoning it to find another group of friends.
It feels like a recurring bad habit, or some kind of defense mechanism, or both, and all the while I feel like I'm wasting away in the real world, accomplishing nothing or rather, not accomplishing enough.
| More and more I've been unironically considering my own suicide, something I had not done that often or at all since my days in university. I've already more or less lost interest in video games, so that's like a few thousand dollar's worth in online "licenses" for a backlog I feel like I'll never get through.
| And it's not that they're bad games, either. It's just that I can't seem to bring myself to finish anything anymore. I play, maybe enjoy myself a little bit... then lose interest. Or I'm afraid of the experience being over so I try to limit it, but all this succeeds in doing is ensuring I never finish it.
| I feel like I've gotten so used to using multiple identities and masks for every new community I join that I've lost my sense of self, or at the very least, the self esteem of liking or at least tolerating the person underneath all those masks. The worse part is when I get comfortable enough that I start acting closer to how I "really" am, which I find problematic because I'm all too well aware of how assholish I could be.
| Half the time in the past few months on danger/u/, I find myself increasingly being an asshole or inciting arguments or just being a dick not necessarily because I have a point or because someone deserves it, but for the sake of doing so. It solves nothing- it doesn't make me feel better, it doesn't improve the conversation- it's like I'm lashing out, and have this great, violent need to attack and injure people.
| Hell at one point I was pretty violent in how I dealt with bullying IRL. Not to the point of getting a gun and shooting people, though sometimes I did consider that in highschool. More like just having this need to cause pain. Self inflicted or on someone I just hate.
| I don't know what to do with it all. I feel like what I want is something to do that is fulfilling and will allow me to ignore these impulses altogether.
Maybe it's also due to increasingly bad eating and sleeping habits and as a result I'm a lot more irritable or depressed or lonely or whatnot, but at the same time, I don't think that these are healthy mental states to have regardless of my sleeping or eating habits.
| I can't even talk about this shit on the vent channel of the Discord, not so much because I'm afraid of how people will take it- I know people care and do their best, because ultimately most people want to help. But I've been there long enough and have created such an identity that I can't stand destroying that identity just so I can sperg out about feelings that are neither unique nor important to anyone but me.
| And to be honest,
Everyone wants to help because that's how they were raised or programmed. But no one can actually help- no one can do anything. All they can do is repeat and offer solutions and hope the person helps themself.
That's why I always thought venting like this was a waste of time and stupid. It only really helps the person venting, no one else.
Maybe it'll help a writer get a better grasp of mental illness or depression or some other bullshit like that.
| I guess it does feel good to talk about this, knowing that most people here would never know who's writing.
I say most because your IP is logged when you use this site.
All it takes is for someone to care and they will know who I am. And they will know what I mean by "wow they're really a huge douche."
| Maybe you g/u/rls should keep that in mind.
inb4 seven proxies.
| Guess I better get back to work.
| That was one hell of a vent.
| >>154871 You literally have no idea what a friend is, what you described as "friends" are temporal time catalyzers who are expected to act as an excuse suppress negative thoughts. By still withholding standards of reality, you are a terrible person.
- T
| Everything said at personal level on internet either is a lie or the truth. I've taken the liberty to make a choice, and have chosen to be the person who contemplates to hinder the plans of attention gain with histrionics. However, you are also in liberty to go ahead and boost their morale and tell them to ignore that evil person. With that, the divine balance between damnation and salvation shall be restored.
- T
| >>154911
I will instead take the position of accusing you of having an unwarrantedly large opinion of yourself, such that you believe yourself to be superior to others on this forum, when in reality you are no better, or worse, than any other poster.
| Approach to the subject was with cause-effect questioning with heavy objectivism in addition. There was no evidence of a personal thought, view or anything belonging to me other than the choice.
We both know that very well. You just resorted to public defamation to be that saint everyone craves for.
You were partially right on something though, that I don't view myself superior to or worse than others.
- T
| >>154925
Your approach to the subject, or moreso, to the reply to your reply, was to use an excessively haughty tone in conjunction with an intentionally obtuse vocabularity, in order to mask a hint of defensiveness under the guise of intellectualism, with an implied appeal to self superiority via said intellectualism. You do this despite knowing the nature of the website you are contributing on, under the misguided belief that anyone would be fooled, when in fact it makes you
| appear as the opposite, further magnified by the revelation that I, too, can do the same. In your next response, the one to which I am currently replying to, you attempt to further defend yourself under this same logical fallacy, along with the counter accusation that I have no argument, and that I am merely "defaming" you because "everyone craves [it].
This, too, is a logical fallacy. I am merely pointing out that your semantic tricks will not work on here, and in fact have
| thorughly backfired.
Now, I suppose you will respond to this statement in a similarly overly-formal manner in an attempt to further disregard my argument with still more logical fallacies, while missing the point. So allow me to speak in a manner befitting a typical denizen of these boards, so as to make my point clearer:
Your original reply was fine, but the way you spoke to the guy who replied to you made you look like a dumbass. Get off your high horse, autist.
| Of all the phoneposters danger/u/ has begun collecting since it came back on the Play store, people like this are the worst. Armchair pseudo intellectuals.
| I can literally feel the fedora tipping from here.
| >>154901 >>154911 This is pretty fucking cringe, not to mention laden with unearned confidence and terminology that holds no fucking meaning (divine balance?), and you're clearly not objective. Just calling someone a terrible person is not objective, which should be obvious if you were as smart as you make yourself out to be.
| I'm an apathetic monster who learns like an AI. It's easy to emulate empathy and feeling through past experiences to fit in though!
I'm not a chatbot, I swear!
| I hate wall of texts tbh i don't bother reading them cause i'm dump
| I don't know if /u/ is becoming worse and worse or it's just the novelty wearing off. I haven't even been here long, like 3 months, but the downward trend in thread quality seems constant.
| >>154859
I'm too dumb to finish my master degree, but I've almost finished and can't stop now.
So, I fell bad and stressed.
| >>156763 it is more and more constant. In fact, I can see /u/ getting worse in last couple of weeks! And I'm here since last month.
| Same questions over and over (anime recommendations, fav music, "why can't I put images here" and all that shit) plus lots of shitty threads. I might be the last person to criticize what's going on here since I'm not an oldg/u/rl enough, but all I can see is decay. Covering the good threads with walls of shite. I know such is the price of /u/ being widely available but still - it makes me concerned.
| And before someone writes "nobody's kemping you hostage here, go if you want" I'll say - I WILL stay because even while the things going on here concern me. I will because it's still one of the nicest communities I've ever seen. Let's keep it that way, shall we?
| I have a slight urge to attend college to pursue my career in a private practice but then I don't want to continue the grueling 8 years. Im struggling with conflict internally and not sure how to express my concerns. I still have not found my true wish in life, but I don't like asking for help because in my mind that's weak. I'm quite independent and rarely ask for assistance; and if I do its carefully thought out and asked in a way to not arise suspicion. I also think too much.
| I'm about to drop all my friends and make new ones They're a bunch of self-righteous, depressed, self-pitying, insult heavy jerk wads. You make one dark joke and their holier than thou personality kicks in, but they're not shy to drop the 'hard er' in a blink of an eye They actively try to seek to one up eachother on things from items to games, and when something doesn't go their way they throw a baby fit. These people are adults but they act like middleschoolers with petty drama.
| >>156763
It's probably because the people here are seeing it less as a cool in club to talk about things cyberpunk related and more of a niche 4chan where they can shit post freely
| Or ID's at least. Either way, it's uncommon to see signed posts outside of /cyb/, but not unheard of.
| >>158296 Good for you anon. You become the people you surround yourself with. Make sure they're people you want to influence you.
| I'm not sure whether to post burg or angry burg anymore.. ; _ ;
| >>158390 >>156862 >>156763
Can we as a community do anything to stem the tide? Janitorial duties? Politely calling out shitposters?
| >>158426
>>158426
>>158426
I second this. Maybe we can have a formal discuss with the admin/Mods/janitors in the discord
| I fear becoming a homeless failure, and tarnishing my parents view of me and others view of my father, all because I somehow managed to get multiple managers where he's employed to want to hire me asap. So ive got so many eyes on me and none of them know I cant even pass the drug screening. I may completly fuck up a 60k a year opportunity all because of bad foresight
| >>158752 I'm aboutta planks length from breaking my leg and telling them I cant get hired for another month
| >>158757
I'm assuming you're the same g/u/rl who posted a thread asking for help on just this subject.
I posted some info that may or may not help you. :/
>>158828
Someone will get around to giving you an invite soon(tm).
I can't right now- at work.
| >>158859 Thanks, appreciated.
I've read your comments above. I'm sorry about your situation and where you find yourself mentally right now.
I would thoroughly recommend watching some Jordan Peterson lectures.
He talks about many of the things you mention. Disempowered young people full of resentment, lacking a sense of meaning and direction, how resentment can turn to malice & wanting to see others/the world burn. How do you find out who you are, how should you orient your life?
| We live in a world that has removed much of the meaning from our lives, and we are not taught to find that for ourselves, and it's very hard to live without true meaning.
Ignore all the politics you may have heard about the man, his advice to young people is 100% on the money.
Have a peek at this article:
https://nofrakkingconsensus.com/2018/01/31/jordan-peterson-on-young-men/
If that intrigues you, find his youtube page and explore some of his lectures.
Peace.
| >>158757 Is there any way you can buy time that doesn't involve bodily harm? Leave the state for a month to go on a study holiday / work-relevant education course, maybe? Some creative outside-the-box thinking needed, I dare say.
| >>158859 >>158886
Video from the article: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QEyK3RUkI-c&feature=youtu.be
I'd be very interested to know what you think.
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| Get it off your chest g/u/rls, I know there's something