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Drowning
| I can't swim, I have been rescued from drowning two times. It actually isn't an entirely unpleasant experience, as it might seem, at least it hasn't been for me. The panicking ensued from the adverse turn of events isn't much fun, but otherwise it's remarkably serene. I don't remember choking and struggling, I must have, but what has remained with me instead, is the overwhelming, embracing, weightless oneness.
| An ambedo moment - the intricate patterns, formed by myriads of air bubble on the chaotically lulling layers of uncanny beautiful celadon wave backdrop, the eerie enticing nothingness below and the judging glow above, the realization of how fragile life is and how little it matters, how little anything matters.
| I imagine, if I tried it willingly and with a peaceful mind, it would be pleasant. You have to admit, it is an appealing way to die. To become one with nature, enveloped and swept away, without blood, pain, disfigurement or prolonged suffering.
| Being struck dead by lightning would be beautiful, but that's not an option we can choose. Freezing to death, in a blanked of snow, also speaks to my sensibilities, but while I do like cold, I'm not sure it would be all that enjoyable. How long would it take? First to stop feeling cold, then to die? I'm not against it, but drowning sound like a better deal. Water is admirable, it gives life, would be appropriate for it to take life too.
| While there's merit to ponds and lakes, even swamps, I would prefer to drown in flowing water. I wouldn't want my body to be found, I don't like the concept of funerals, neither graveyards. Not that I particularly care, what happens to my body, but I don't want to bother anyone, nor anyone to grieve for me.
| Philosophically speaking, no life knows less suffering, than the life of that which flows. What hurts us, is our struggles and attachments, we can achieve tranquility only by being content and flowing in the stream of live. Same in death, accept it, embrace it, appreciate what was, don't lament what was not, flow into it and away with it.
| Is this some sort of fetish? While your philosophy here does sound interesting, I'd much rather just not die for a while. I wouldn't willingly die, because even if that death would be enjoyable as you described here, you would be able to fully enjoy it, since you are dead. I think you are better of just fantasizing about it than actually doing it.
| >>144328 I think it's just her "preferred way to go" you know, most people want to go out while they are asleep, this gurls just have a different preference.
| Drowning fetish induced by trauma? Does nearly drowning give you a stiffy?
| >>144449 not everything revolves around sex. I simply think, that there's profound beauty in suicide via drowning. It's not even that uncommon opinion, through ages there have been countless works of art depicting this. Simply google "ophelia", for example.
| Rain dampens
And the frost chills.
All is dark within the earth.
But in spring waters there's no pan
Afloat on waves...
Sunk beneath waves...
From a book I'm reading right now -
Kusamakura by Natsume Sōseki.
| It has to be a trauma thing though. Maybe not necessarily trauma, but it's definitely caused by those experiences. This isn't a question btw. It's more like talking to myself. It's interesting though. Please talk more about. And yes, I have seen those types of paintings, pictures etc. Also calling it a fetish was a joke, I didn't actually think it was sexual.
I'm >>144328 this poster btw.
| >>144471 I don't mind writing about it, but I don't think it'll be that interesting. Both times were like 10-15 years ago, so who knows how accurately I even remember.
First time, at my grandparents country house. I was helping to clear out an area around a pond and I broke a tree branch against which I was leaning, which made me tumble into that pond.
| There were plenty of people around, so there wasn't actually a chance of me drowning, but it took them long enough, for me to think I actually will die, could have been 30 seconds or 5 minutes, doesn't matter. I vividly remember the bubbles, the green waves made by me splashing and the sunlight, which I was writing about.
Second time, at sea on a jet ski. If I remember correctly, I didn't want to ride it, but got convinced.
| And it was fun, I got carried away, rode too far and tried sharper and sharper turns until it flipped around. Don't remember much about the drowning itself, just the helplessness, darkness, vastness and merciless waves. This time it took a lot longer for someone to rescue me, don't think I was unconscious, don't know how I stayed afloat. I remember my mother later telling, that she begged some stranger at the beach to rescue me, but he couldn't be bothered to...
| If you wanted to play a psychologist, then you could attribute this event, to my risk aversion, dislike for thrilling activities and cynicism, but I don't think it's that simple.
What I remember distinctly from both times, is how I felt afterwards. You would think, that someone who almost died moments ago, would be overflowing with emotions, but no. I was thoroughly calm.
| I wasn't upset that I almost died, I wasn't happy that I was rescued, I don't remember thinking or caring about anything. Is that how shock feels? You just don't know how to react and what to think? But isn't it supposed to be unpleasant? And it didn't really dissipate and reality didn't set in.
| Even now, I don't think of those events as significant, it's just something that happened. Although I haven't stepped in any body of water since then, not bigger than my bathtub at least. And I do enjoy long baths, often I will just sleep there for an hour after work.
(this 500 character limit is annoying and sorry for writing this much)
| When you describe it like that it sounds like you're being passively suicidal.
| >>144547 I don't think I am. If you asked me, if I wished I had drowned then. I would say that no, I do not. Although the first reason for that is my family, I couldn't cause so much grieve to them.
I don't know. I'm not depressed, I have nothing worth complaining about in my life, but I don't particularly value it either. It's just that everything is so meaningless. I have plenty of things that I enjoy, but what is that good for, besides fleeting distraction?
| But no worries, as I said, I'm not going to kill myself, there's no reason to. I'm just coming to terms with the meaningless of life.
| >>144533
A few years ago I was chopping wood with a 1H axe. My mom called me and I looked to my side while chopping down.
I looked, and saw that I almost cut through my finger, and It bled a lot.
First reaction? I laugh lightly.
I didn't feel pain or discomfort.
I believe shock is a natural trauma suppressor.
| ｄｒｏｗｎｉｎｇ ｉｎ ｔｅａｒｓ
| ^ hell no
drowning in semen, well thats more like it
| >>144571 I get you. I feel mostly the same way. What I asked wasn't really about when or how it happened, but that was interesting too. Not trying to play psychiatrist, I'm just interested is psychology, and how people see life and things in it in so many different ways. And I believe not really feeling anything after something like that is normal.
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| Have you ever thought about drowning? Everyone contemplates death, it's an integral par of human condition, but drowning specifically?