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Wanna kill myself
| It sounds like you're cripplingly depressed from an opressive lifestyle.
You know, if you move out you can wear skirts all the time.
| Yep I know but I need a job first and I come from a overprotective family so I know fucking nothing about anything that would be useful so I don't know how to get a job, hell I barely know how to clean my room.
I'm 18 and a half so I might as well just work but i know it will fuck with my college (which it's thankfully free on my country) I already fail 2/3 of last year's classes so I gotta retake them and I can't fuck it up again cause I won't be able to get a job without...
| Knowing thstiwont just forget about college. (I think the app didn't submit the other reply where I go in more detail)
Basically: I need good score in a college that it's teaching me something that im sure won't use on my professional life cause I just simply don't like it so I can get a job at something that could give me enough money to move out.
| You are still very young. Do not kill yourself due to an overprotective family. I could be a Hell of a lot worse. Don't take for granted free college. I never had that opportunity. Give it some time. You will find plenty of opportunities to freely express yourself. Believe me when I say living in your 20s will have some interesting and unexpected twists. Good luck!
| *It could..
| >>134681
Don't worry anon, life gets better, I can't say its worth living but it gets better by a bit, bit by bit, just get a job, its intimidating but worth, save up, move out, live how you wanna, best of luck anon, free college here too!
| If u will kill yourself, do it with proofs and live translation
| Don't worry op I live a meaningless life as well just living to live and by no means am I depressed but the world seems a bit boring an god or whoever gave me the short end of the stick for many things but hey I still look forward to what might happen in the future and that keeps me going. Hikikomori
| Go watch exurb1a on YouTube, just trust me.
| move out OP, living by yourself is sweet. you can do what you want, wear what you want, live how you want, eat what you want. my family doesn't approve of everything i do but it has literally zero impact on my life because i live by myself. killing yourself now would be quitting right before things start getting good.
| You sound like you're in a situation similar to me. If you wouldn't mind talking to me on discord, the 500 character limit here makes posting advice troublesome
it's rey#8072
| OP just hang on and endure. You are young and like some anon said in a couple of years you will be 20.It WILL get different. I get you cant move out because finance problem. Just take your mind off of it right now. It is not easy but not difficult either. Suicide should not be an option. Not now at least. Wait till you get 30 and then think again. But definitely not now.
| I dare you not like life after this
https://youtu.be/vQhqikWnQCU
I was on the verge of depression, now whenever I feel sad I watch this
| >>134701
I got myself free education in BMSTU when I was 17, so I had to move out to live in the dorms, knowing jackshit about responsible self-sufficient life. I managed somehow to pass 1st sem exams but I came into the 2nd sem with clinical depression developed. Basically it was 4 month pulled out of my life. I don't remember anything happening during that period except constant lying to parents on the phone. Needless to say I got expelled.
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| >>135571
Now I'm 24, I've been working as a handyman at the airport for a year, and now finishing education in a less flashy uni, study 'in absentia' in another college and have a half-time job. And those had been interesting years and I feel like I grew as a person immensely.
I've been pursuing a dream applying to BMSTU but it's no longer the point of my life now. You can change whole lot of interests and jobs just in a span of several years.
| >>135578
Don't rob yourself of your personal level-ups OP! If it's depression it's sickness and you will heal. If you've got opportunity, find therapist and talk to closest friends regularly, and/or us here.
| >>135578
Don't rob yourself of your personal level-ups OP! If it's depression it's sickness and you will heal. If you've got opportunity, find therapist and talk to closest friends regularly, and/or us here.
| doing guided meditations made my depression way better. please try this out, isw
ear to god it works https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MuVCFEqv1AY
| Thanks gurls, Ill try to get money fast and move out as soon as I can.
First gonna get a good therapist tho.
Sorry for the gurl who wanted to talk, I'm really shy to the point I had to get incredible drunk to even enter danger/u/'s discord, hope someone got to talk to you tho and if I get piss off drunk while this thread is open then I'll message you, thanks for wanting to talk and hope we get thought this.
It's very late so I'll try the meditation tommorow morning, thanks gurl.
| I intended this to be a general advice thread so if you gurls have some worries and want advices for them just write them out and I'll try to help like you gurls help me.
| >>135788
That is the spirit. And keep it up.
Ah and also, whenever you feel like wearing a skirt, remember I would want to look at what is under it, laugh at that and be proud of who you are. ^^
| Op doesn't need more depression
| Wrong thread^ i'm sorry
| Whats the discord link?
| I second the medical treatment advice... Therapist and Antidepressants, sounds like you have a lot of work to do, but when you see that it's actually possible to get better then you just take it slow and do what you have to do. Your family should help to find therapist\meds, but if not, then it is your responsibility. Third thing is go to the gym... it is amazing how quickly your self-hate disappears. It comes back, but then go back. Plus you look and feel better. It is your choice
| Medical treatment is good, if you can afford it or your health insurance covers it
Otherwise try to at least stay alove till you can afford the treatment, who knows maybe by just trying to stay alive the problem may disappear before you even get a way to be treated.
| I give up on this keyboard....
| Dont kill yourself because it's really risky. You could fail the attempt and really fuck yourself up. Also between living a shitty life and being dead, living is probably the better option becauae at least you have porn.
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| Also advice thread, starting with my problem.
Basically I don't really know why I wanna kill myself but if I have to guess it's because of the existencial crisis of not having anything to look forward to, nor having a dream or a job that it interest me the slightest.
Also add to that the dreadful emotions that comes from living with a family that could possibly kick me out because i would like to use skirts.
So yeah, help.