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i hate myself
| I wish I didn't find a new group of friends every couple years and inadvertently start an entire new community only for that community to eventually sour and collapse because i was too weak mentally, and emotionally, to keep it running. I wish that I was like my peers who seemingly have gotten everything they could ever ask for in life- stable jobs, homes of their own, married, children, regular friends, loved ones.
| I have none of that, so increasingly the only place I can turn to left to assuage my social hunger is online. Niche communities with stupid, immature, retarded hobbies and tastes and interests in shit that everyone likes to pretend is special and unique and degenerate when really it's just another form of normalcy with the branding of being somehow different from the herd.
| Everytime I join one of these cocksucking social networks its like looking at a fucking mirror- the same people with the same problems with the same solutions that they are similarly ignoring, in lieu of someone to bash the fucking mirror over their faces so that they could wake up.
| And I wonder, did I ever wake up?
Or did I see the exit and decide, No.
I'll stay.
It's nice here.
| Nice? NICE!?
What is possibly nice about this? It's like being stuck in a fucking groundhog day except that every day i feel myself getting older and i feel myself running out of fucking time.
| what i would fucking give to not be self fucking aware
of just how much of my fucking life i have wasted.
| i don't fucking deserve keeping both parents, living middle class, having a decent job or having graduated from school or having art skills or any of that trash!
I WASTE IT.
WASTE.
IT.
| What I would fucking GIVE to just be a SHEEPLE.
Because what the FUCK is the point of being self aware if you are TOO FUCKED IN THE HEAD TO DO ANYTHING WITH IT!?
| i don't want to keep doing this.
| I really, really, really want to die.
| Give all my stuff away to someone else who can do something with my blessings.
| Power means nothing if it isn't used.
| It's like that bible quote about burying money and not even having the fucking foresight to put it in a bank.
So it can gain interest.
| Also I don't give a shit what people think of the contents of this thread. Turn it into a meme or copypasta or some stupid shit like that.
I just wanted a place to rage where no one knows who the hell I am, nor cares.
| but we are here for you, pref-chan (｡•́︿•̀)
| Self awareness is the path to enlightenment. Instead of sitting and complaining about the things which are wrong and a huge burden, it's time to act and get up to do something about them.
Knowledge is power my g/u/rl.
If you know what is wrong, if you know what you do not like and want to change. You already know how to fix that issue.
But like I said, instead of complaining, start to act.
| boner
| Wait, Send the discord link please
| your on the bottom of the well, where you will drown in your sorrows, but at least the only thing else to do its to climb up and accomplish anything you need to live a happy life.
you have the power to fix your issues, and even if you dont have the support to do it you can still do it, it will be harder but its possible. hell pop up here from time to time we'll support you, at least i will.
people change, but thats doesnt mean that you will be alone forever.
we'll be here for you.
| Hey, I'm in a dark place too, but I'm trying to pull through and hopefully you'll do the same. I'll pray for you, dude, things will probably get better.
| Damn. I dunno who you are, but sorry it all went down like that, dude.
| Even normies have problems. The grass is always greener on the other side.
You just listed out the things that concern you. You know what's bothering you and you feel passionate enough to do something about it. That's a phenomenal start. I'd wager you're leagues ahead of many of these g/u/rls. You have a sense of responsibility. You won't give it away and you won't squander it. Have patience, have faith and never stop moving forward.
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| i wish i never got close to people here or on danger/u/ discord.
i wish i never took off my mask and started slowly acting more in tune with how i am because I became more comfortable over time.
I wish I always kept the fake-but-not-so-fake personality and character, that I was "acting" in the community.
I wish I never got too deep to the point where I started caring about the community beyond that of just being a stupid meme board based off of a niche video game about lesbians.