You ever feel like youre just different than everyone else?
| This is very true gurl.
| it's part of the existence in physical reality starter pack.
| I was going to go off on a rant but I don't know if I have it in me. I feel ya.
| Someone tore my heart out last year and a bunch of my friends are supportive but it felt like nobody actually understood why I felt so strongly about anything.
It's just, I assumed that if things got tough *someone* would understand what I was going through. That was kind of a load bearing assumption and I don't know what to do now.
This isn't on them or anything, they tried their best to logically understand why I was affected so much.
| Ah whatever, If anyone feels similarly, I'm there with you, boss.
| Beers and casino, NOW
| unfortunately, some things just remain abjectly inarticulable
| >>1099167
an estimated hundred thirty five thousand years of language use just for some fuckface on the internet to waste it all whining about how unskilled at its use they are
as another g/u/rl would say: a severe lack of warrior spirit
| >>1099169
I tried as hard as I could. I really split my soul out to a lot of my closest friends in many different ways. I think a few of them logically got what I was feeling, at least...
| It's called having the 'tism
| IKRRRR that’s why I joined a cult
| i didnt. now i do. it made sense why religion...just got lost in its own bullshits.
| youknow" no you dont. not even the macrodetails.
| I also don't know where to go.
Maybe this one helps?
https://kotchan.fun/chat/int
| >>1099160
i've accepted that i basically live in a different reality. as a kid i thought i had to make others understand somehow but i completely gave up
| autism
| yeah it's called autism
| i know exactly how you feel op and i have autism
| I'm undiagnosed acoustic
| maybe I have autism chat...
| oh, im OP but my id refreshed or something
| dunno if it really matters if I do or not if I can't use that information at all.
| Did any of you get anything from your autism diagnosis
| what bothers me is just that i feel perfectly normal like everyone else, maybe its because im average at everything but it seems that every time i try to do something to stand out i just go back to square one in no time
| :true:
| it only gets worse when the people who do get you die.
| >>1099620
God it’s so painful.
@others saying autism-
I think maybe schitzoid personality disorder or smth instead.
| ”Schizoid personality disorder is a condition where a person shows very little, if any, interest and ability to form relationships with other people”
I guess motivation is the key difference when it comes to autism vs spd in forming relationships?
| I definitely have motivation, but it's tiring yknow
| I'll at least look into that a bit more
| >>1099734
That it is, that it is..
I actually never looked into it deeply. I always just vibed with ‘well I have these symptoms and I don’t care what name I put to them’ but I haven’t been immensely successful so ehhhhhhh
| once you realize that, you have to own it. it means that you're not supposed to get along with these people and it's ok. so don't try too hard. if you meet someone you vibe with you'll know it, but otherwise don't torture yourself
| sometimes i feel like an alien parasite, who took over a perfectly functional human and is wasting it away for all of the stupid shit i'm personally inclined to do for whatever reason
| >>1099775
Aww you’re really nice gurl. I won’t let you down.
I actually listened to the audiobook ‘Be who you want’ by Jarret today, it might be partially high neuroticism and low extroversion. There were some ideas to fix these but I’m sleepy zzzzzz
If u want a copy I can send but ofc torrenting is good too!
| Hm, I'll have a look into that as well I guess
| Been thinking I have had autism for a while but I'm unsure, it's hard to know what's statistically normal when you don't ask people
| Unsure if it's related to feeling this way but it's possible. Those other things are good to look into as well
| Not really too sure what I could do about most of it though
| Apparently extroversion is used to denote pleasure seeking in general as well as sexuality because they are so linked, in the big 5 personality traits. My book said to socialize more, in part by making rules like talking to a stranger once per day, I’m not sure. I think it can change but it’s important to change your environment to one where you have your needs met and have positive social interactions.
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| Like if you tried to explain the things you care about to others, they just wouldn't understand at all. And vice versa, there are things that you don't expect others to care about but they do a lot.