What to do now...
| Eventually, after a few months, I decided to come back after I talked to a lot of them and sorted some things out but, I dont know, I think that "my friends will understand what I care about" was a load bearing lie. I dont really have much against any of them, on the contrary theyre mostly pretty great people. But I dont think I trust myself to know what they think of me.
| Ive known these guys for quite a long time. I thought perhaps eventually id rub off on them and theyd rub off on me. From what ive seen im unsure if they even understand what eachother care about, my poor social skills out the picture.
Ive been doing a bunch of hobbies and stuff, and thats cool, but I dont know. I just get the feeling its incredibly unlikely for me to gain that belief back, and without it making friends isnt as rewarding as it once was.
| Ive known these guys for quite a long time. I thought perhaps eventually id rub off on them and theyd rub off on me. From what ive seen im unsure if they even understand what eachother care about, my poor social skills out the picture.
Ive been doing a bunch of hobbies and stuff, and thats cool, but I dont know. I just get the feeling its incredibly unlikely for me to gain that belief back, and without it making friends isnt as rewarding as it once was.
| Fuck duplicate post
| Anyways just a rant. Perhaps I was the problem. Whatever I suppose.
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| Earlier last year I got into an argument with one of my friends that made me realize I don't understand what my friends really care about, and they don't understand what I care about. Im not going to lie and say I was perfect. I publicly said rude things about this person after I reached my breaking point. Eventually I just dropped contact with most of my friends because I was overwhelmed talking to them.