I did it g/u/rls
| congrats g/u/rl!!!! we’re so happy for you!! lets strive for two weeks now! (*´꒳`*)
| Awwww but you’re so pretty sober
That’s really good you are
| LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I am proud for you g/u/rl!
| why... that's it I'm killing myself
| That’s it I’m kissing you!!!! And still cheering for sober g/u/rl I bet her skin is looking healthier
Why are you feel like that kill myself g/u/rl?
| >>1047524 my only source of happiness come from other people ruining their life slowly with bad choices, if they're getting hold of them self and develop a healthy life then I'll have no more happiness left.
| >>1047390 fantastic work g/u/rl! i'm really very proud of you, that's hard. keep taking it one moment at a time!
| :o wow what a thoughtful clean g/u/rl making bad choices just for you
| drink... for me please, do it.
| i don't wanna die
| Great having big sosa on /u/
Congrats though gurl!!
| Thanks everyone!!! But I don't know how long
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| My message got cut because I accidentally hit submit! Twice!! So ummmm any cute g/u/rls here use drugs??? (///ω///)♪
| >>1048046 you got this! don't focus on how long you can go for, just on making it through the present moment. present you is stronger than future you :)
| I wanna happy cleans/u/rl I hope you get to do something nice today
| Well donee, I'm so proud of you g/u/r/l! Keep going!
| Two weeks...
| I got a new stash just in case!!!
But I'm not using it because I don't want to disappoint the cute g/u/rls on this board... (´；ω；`)
| Please get rid of it cutie-I like your a lot i wish I could reach through the screen and kiss and snuggle you troubles away
| >>1048716
Even if you have to, know you did really well and can always return to this point! My friends who have quit stuff didn't do it without hiccups, but they always held on for as long as they could and found stuff to do and then the time they could stay away got longer and longer and they're a lot happier now!
What I'm trying to say is that I'm proud of you and you should be proud of you because is a hard an not always linear thing and you are doing so well <3
| >>1048751 nooo im not gonna throw it away!! You know.... snuggling and kissing is even better when high...>///<
>>1048779 omg you are too nice..
| Oh and of course, I'm assuming you know this, but if you do fold then keep it light. Assuming what you're quitting is harder than like, weed and alcohol or whatever, your body is for sure more sensitive to it now. Taking your old usual dose when relapsing is the quickest way to an OD, almost lost a friend to that. It's not pretty
So hang in there and stay safe g/u/rl!
| My internet friend probably thinks I’m weird but she took a really big dose of her cuddles drug when her bf left her and cut herself and it was enough to kill her and I felt upset and sad and I’m still upset and they’re back together and she says they quit hard drugs but that she might be dead by new years and I don’t know she says I’m ok but I think she’s cool and pretty and I feel bad about it all and sick a jealous and I’m boring and ugly and weird and alone
| >>1048930 Cuddles drug? It seems like your friend is going through a lot and you feeling upset is completely valid. Their relationship doesn't appear to be healthy to me... I hope they will be ok.. You seem like a good and supportive friend, but you gotta work on your selfesteem cutie! You're not as boring/ugly/weird as you think!!! (*´ω｀*)
| I wonder how light hoodieg/u/rl is doing right now... I sometimes think about her... (///ω///)
| Three weeks! At least... It would be... If I didn't...
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| Nuh uh! You did a really good job Cutie! It’s a slow process. Why do you feel sad though? If you really don’t want it, even if you also want it a little, maybe you can remember not wanting it next time? Are you feeling ok now? Maybe have a fruit and some rest lovely g/u/rl. I bet that was really tiring, sometimes that’s how I feel.
>>1049025
<3 that’s really true and I needed to hear it. I checked on her and she’s working really hard on stuff she’s way better at than me but I’m ok
| >>1049419 I got a little desperate, I thought I needed it, but I don't think I did... I had a nice evening though, played some videogames (ᵕ,,¬﹏¬,,) I bought some fruit, thanks for the rec ^-^ Take care, I hope everything will be okay with you and your friend :3
>>1049420 ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
| Regress is a part of progress. I believe in you!
| >>1049455
I luv you g/u/rl I’m really happy to hear that. What fruits did you have?? I had cantaloupe slices yesterday!!!!
| >>1049464 um strawberries, melon, apple, grapes and um maybe more. I got a few trays of mixed pre-cut fruits, to lower the bar, otherwise I'm just not eating them>ᴗ<
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| So true. I like oranges a lot more when I cut them up though! The sweet juices hit my mouth instead of the bland outside when I first touch it. That was a good idea making it nice and easy! I hope I'll hear from ya again ><
| What'd you do to last long?
| >>1049512 had different kinds of melon last night. I love fruit now ( ☆∀☆)
>>1049521 I have honestly no idea what you meant with this...
| >>1049521
Maybe she’s asking how you went so long without not being clean like tips and lifestyle
>>1049617
Oooh I put frozen berries in my lunch and ate them in a bleh setting and now I’m gassy. Lesson learned ; )
| >>1049521 >>1049791
Oh. Well. Eat salads, sleep well and go out for walks!!! And try to take days off from drugs to let your body (and brain) recover! (*´ω｀*)
Basically, try to live healthy and don't overdo it if you want to live!!! ("⌒∇⌒")
| Reset the counter!!! ＞∪＜ almost a week dangit XDDD but being alive feels so nice!!!!!!
| Yeah… but God there must be a way to feel alive without it being a stale neutered joke. Remember the colors when we were kids? The feeling? I love you rest well g/u/rl I need some rest myself.
| >>1050065 I don't remember too much of my childhood, but it wasn't very good... Neither were my teenage years, some things went horribly wrong. Things are much better now, but I do wish I had somehting more colorful to look back to.
| *hug* I’m sorry g/u/rl
I was a kinda happy kid til like fifth grade and I just tried to avoid feeling or thinking after that, and it wasn’t so bad, but I got tired of it, but it’s still easier than this world for me. My friend said the same as you I think.
Do you think you make such memories now? Gosh I remember before puberty when we would all cuddle together and watch Star Trek. I hope I’ll get that one day again. I don’t trust giving myself to someone to give me experiences
| >>1050085
Not sure if this will be reassuring or not, but I can't remember most of my life due to my memories being blocked off so heavily from back to back trauma. Now that things are better though, life is getting increasingly more euphoric to experience. While my progress towards being healthy has been slow, the healthier the more memories I've started making, to the point where I struggle to feel sad about the lost childhood because what I have now is all I truly need
| >>1050107 Although I'm on the right path and doing better than a few years ago, I don't feel ready to fully enjoy life and make memories, I want to though... I just don't think I'm there yet.
>>1050152 It might be a little similar for me, much trauma. I wouldn't say life is euphoric for me, but I can't say I'm suffering either. The drugs are not to numb the pain, but to take me to heights I feel like I should be experiencing without them.
| I love fruit ‧₊ ᵎᵎ ???? ⋅ ˚✮
| yay
| I’m pretty numb and am too anxious to do anything focused lately :< I like fruit today I had an orange soda haha T-T
| >>1050579 I hope you will be able to overcome your anxiety. I know how it is to be anxious... I hope you can go out for a walk in the park or just around the block even if it's just to get some fresh air!!! I Hope you'll feel bettter soon!!! (о´∀`о)ノ
| Hewwo, I'm vinyl gurl, I believe in you! You can do it! Be the sober you were always meant to be! Or something! What are you even clean of btw? ♡
| >>1050811 Hii coolg/u/rl! This thread is many weeks old now ( ˶°ㅁ°) !! I can't say I'm clean anymore... (ㅠ﹏ㅠ) in fact I'm a little high on amphetamine rn!!! But I keep trying and can I consistently go without for about a week! ٩(^ᗜ^ )و ´-
| >>1050818 ahh, I see. I think the most important advice I could give is just full stopping, full cold turkey. Trying to tapper off usually doesn't work, if you want to actually quit throw it all away immediately, and never look back or buy more, find another thing you can throw yourself into, a show, just buying new stuff for some dopamine in the brain, good food, whatever. Gl gl with your journy gurl
| Hug hug I care about you g/u/rls!
I didn’t feel better that day but I am feeling the weight lifting off today an it was preddy good.
Make sure to sleep and brush your teeth and hydrate amphetamine g/u/rl! Don’t reuse needles! A cutie like you deserves the bestest health. <3 lotsa love, I’m really happy you were clean for a week, it probably let you heal the parts which were getting tired
| Apple juice day!!
| Fruit was moldy, so no fruit for me today... ૮ ⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ ·̭ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝ ྀིა
| Awww kiss kiss I bought some tang so I can make fruity drink wherever! But nothing beats the real thing- like you cutie!
I hope u feel ok OP <3
| >>1051091 Never truly ok without something in my system! But i'm doing fine. Gonna buy fruit again ahh i love fruit!!!! (≧▽≦)
| Me too!!! I had a tiny orange like fruit! Enjoy!!!
| I like how this thread changed into a fruit appreciation thread.
| I would like to thank every g/u/rl here who showed their support (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ
Maybe one day I can be healthier, but today is not that day!!! ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )
| Guuurl I like how you’re thankful and nice! You can take a happy break but take care of the pain if you can and don’t do anything you don’t wanna do which makes you hurt ok? I’m going to have some sweet orange drink now!
| Way to go, champ!
| >>1051798
orange soda is overpowered. i like to listen to the album cobra juicy by bmsr while i have one on a warm afternoon.
keep trying OP. i know it's tough. i'm getting close to relapsing on my own target behavior recently but threads like this help :)
| Y'all pushing through together is so cute. Wishing you all the best
| Got fruit again!!!
| Yay!
| (^O^) delicious! I mixed more suga into my orange drink mix!!!! And I had granola and chicken for lunch which was tasty! I love you!
My mental state has been getting better too
| I finally got to an effective dose of ADHD meds a few days ago! they're really helping. now I just need to convince myself to keep taking them every day. thanks for reminding me to eat g/u/rls
| Gosh I was feeling empty in my head and energy and ate toast and felt WAY better… and then I felt worse after like 30 minutes, I think I was just tired, but I just ate again and I feel good now- definitely eat pilled!
I’m really happy for you g/u/rl! My sister changed to anti anxiety meds, I guess they made hers worse, so if it does don’t be afraid to change! I hope you feel good tomorrow:3
| Okay so it's been a week. Again. \(>o<)/
Might make it another week??? I did 2 weeks before...
| That’s good!!!! I love ya- I was actually looking at this thread earlier and wondering but I didn’t have anything to say really. How have you been feeling?
| >>1052938 Alright actually, but everything is boring? Not much euphoria, but maybe it's for the better?
| eat 12 pounds of ibogaine
you will not regret eating 12 pounds of ibogaine
| >>1053144
Yeah..
I was frustrated with it an hour ago and then I got focused doing some stuff and feel ok after doing it. Not super excited or anything though. Chasing euphoria sometimes leaves me feeling so hurt and disappointed. I want to be proud of my life and loved and make everyone OK. Maybe I'll take a nap or some other mild activity as a break.
| miau miau gay german cat
| Awww I love you too
This thread is closed.
| I've been clean for a week!!!