self-harm question
| furniture, this furniture is blocked by heavy plastic box and honestly if i want get there it's feel as puzzle.. and also i still feel fear from lose control and i'm like.. wtf is this
do you experience this too? or you are just chilling with your "toys"? i'm maybe cringe tbh, i don't judge if you cut also i don't support it.. i'm using dumb humor for myself to feel better, cynism keep me alive
i would be happy to know, thank you <3
| try sex
| Kinda sounds like you don't really want to self-harm. Have you considered substance abuse instead?
| I only self harm by staying up really late binging games or masturbating for hours saying stupid things, and ignoring all my responsibilities till I get died or whatever. I’m glad if that reduced how much you cut a little. I hope you stop one day. I used to keep my porn inside a vm on another computer because it also made me uncomfortable. Now it’s on my main device, but also I don’t have as much sex drive any more. I wish you could feel happy and in control like with friends you trust
| >>1033374 heeh, paradoxically i don't feel any pain while cutting myself, i clearly do it for chemicals what brain do to me.. but using actual drugs would be expensive and maybe even more addictive
>>1033402 also me xd
>>1033420 why? xd
>>1033372 I'm living too isolated for this xd
| i have really bad ocd, i have to hide anything sharp from myself or i worry about it. for me it works to keep that sort of thing out of sight, but perhaps it would help to keep it in another room? if that doesn't work, you could look on the internet for other ocd tips that might help, it seems like a similar problem.
| >>1033432 what would you even do aith cut g/u/rl as me? xd
>>1033510 but i want razor blades accessable but also not so easily
| I feel an emotional bond to the blades I cut with. I put them in a special box. There's something holy and ritualistic about it. I used to have a a regular razor I'd use and I would wrap it in a silk cloth and put it inside this old timey carved wooden jewlery box. I have to keep the box out of view because just seeing it excites me and turns me on.
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| i noticed some of you g/u/rls are cutting (as i do too) but i have one question.. which honestly bother me and i'm thinking..
you are keeping razor blade (or maybe knives or any tool) with you right? you are not throwing it away, so you can hypothetically use it and have some kind feel of control.. at least i have this
but also i have second emotion and it's fear of sharp objects (which razor blades obviously are).. so i have it but i'm having it inside box, which is inside