Post number #797897, ID: c6d146
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I was sexually assaulted (multiple times) and I feel so dirty. I feel like it's my fault too. Sometimes I want to cut off my breasts and sew my vagina shut. I don't know how else to explain it but I just wish I wasn't a girl anymore. Whenever I think about my assault I want to kill myself. I try not to think about it but sometimes it's impossible. Especially when I see the guy who assaulted me at school. He tries talking to me but I don't say anything. U can't do this anymore.
Post number #797898, ID: c6d146
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Lol I meant **I can't do this anymore**
Post number #797908, ID: c6d146
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>>f63dcf ty :') I feel like it is because I let it happen. I kept telling him to stop but he wouldn't so I gave up.
Post number #797924, ID: 53338c
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Maybe reaching psychological help would be wise I hope you can afford or get some way a therapist, I mean it truly, they can help you
Post number #797926, ID: 8e9edd
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As a girl who was abused for a year and also sexually assaulted, it gets a little easier with time but it doesn't go away. I still don't feel clean after showering but I also ended up working out and lifting a lot to protect myself and others. Then fitness became my passion. Just don't blame yourself for what happened. It reflects on the scum who did it not you. Easier said than done though I know. Either way I'm rooting for you <3
Post number #797933, ID: c6d146
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>>53338c Thank you ♡ I'll try to find one but I'm a minor so they'd just tell my mom what happened and I don't want her to know :/
Post number #797934, ID: c6d146
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>>8e9edd Thank you so much ♡ I hope you're doing better and I hope things get better for you :D I've started working out a lot recently as well and you're right!! It helps me take my mind off things and I feel safer. And I'll try not to blame myself :3 Ty for the advice, I really appreciate it.
Post number #797961, ID: f25a47
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>>797933 if you tell any decent therapist not to tell your parents, they won't. the hard part is finding one.
Post number #797989, ID: caa0e2
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Who do you want to be then? Italian?
Post number #797996, ID: 76c29f
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You didn't "let it happen". You wouldn't tell someone who got attacked by a guy with a knife "yeah but it's your fault, you shouldn't have let him stab you". Also, your body isn't who you are, and what makes you feel dirty is probably more about intimacy, but it is not something that can be taken away. Just like a wound, it hurts, but it is neithed permanent, nor you.
As for therapy, it would help indeed. Online ones exist too I believe, which might be more anonymous.
Post number #798024, ID: d973ca
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It's not you fault, just encountered shitty peoples.
Post number #798025, ID: 162237
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>>797924 This. Go get some professional help in dealing with your trauma. Online or irl. And keeping this a secret won't solve anything.
Post number #798029, ID: 98b5b0
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What do you mean under "abuse" and "sexual assault"? He looked at your chest? Said that you're pretty? Asked you to go out? Jumped at you? Send to everybody your (fake or not) nudes?
Post number #798033, ID: d973ca
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As a male who's encountered several sex offends, changing gender won't helps the fact that most peoples are apes.
Post number #798040, ID: d973ca
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Your heppiness and safety are top priority, leave those peoples when there is chance to
Post number #798042, ID: d973ca
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Life has so much to offer, beside dealing with shitty peoples.
Post number #798043, ID: d973ca
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You are good.
Post number #798044, ID: d973ca
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Foucs on what bring you the most long term, they don't define you at all.
Post number #798046, ID: 8fdf9f
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As a guy, this makes me feel so tired.
Post number #798089, ID: 1e9c2c
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Stop dressing like a slut
Post number #798100, ID: 53338c
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>>798089 are you for real?
Post number #798102, ID: e1de09
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>>798089 Based baitposter.
Post number #798147, ID: 37a73c
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>>1e9c2c jills pink shirt would disagree:<
Post number #798190, ID: 9b0e58
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>>797989 nah dont do this, tried it once. Worst mistake of my life.
Post number #798193, ID: 37a73c
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>>9b0e58 i know an Italian and all they can tall about is being Italian, when they're at home they hate being in Italy.
I'd rather be Brazil
Post number #798196, ID: dd57b7
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>>798193 If you insist. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZSJWz3Z6zs
Post number #798207, ID: dd57b7
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>>798203 I hope you choke on a mass murderer's dick.
Post number #798214, ID: 37a73c
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>>dd57b7 I'm not sure mouth fuckin works as a put down in a thread like this. Seems like fire on fire type shit.
Post number #798229, ID: e88530
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>>dd57b7 Are you underestimating peoples here?
| I was sexually assaulted (multiple times) and I feel so dirty. I feel like it's my fault too. Sometimes I want to cut off my breasts and sew my vagina shut. I don't know how else to explain it but I just wish I wasn't a girl anymore. Whenever I think about my assault I want to kill myself. I try not to think about it but sometimes it's impossible. Especially when I see the guy who assaulted me at school. He tries talking to me but I don't say anything. U can't do this anymore.