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I'm 4 months into mtf hrt, ama
| does your dick work. and, have your hips widened or waist narrowed?
| I teleported bread
| Did they cut your adam's apple?
| how's your bone structure doing?
| why
| & is it working or are you still on stage https://i.4cdn.org/b/1614786068629.jpg ?
| >>742894 my dick still works, but differently. I never get morning wood anymore, and never get any random errections, I only get hard if I'm either super SUPER aroused (I can be horny and still be soft now), or if I'm horny and actively trying to get off lol. Also my orgasms feel more full body and generally are much better feeling, and parts like my tits and thighs are even more erogenous than before (and they were probably above average before even lol)
| >>742894 as for that, I'll have to measure my hips again but I'm pretty sure they either haven't grown or haven't grown much. They don't look too small I think but definitely androgynous/boyish maybe, ppl seem to like them enough tho lol! My waist was actually pretty thin before too and had a slight hourglass shape, and it's a little more prominent now, even though I'm trying to eat more to gain weight. I'm really happy about that.
| >>742939 sadly not yet. I already have like 8k saved up so I'll be able to get that surgery soon hopefully, I'm trying to move out of my parents place first before I do that though since I'm still pretending to be cis around them lol. But when I do, I'm going to get the vocal surgery and I'm absolutely getting my apple shaved down, I hate it so much lol
| >>742948 I think it's pretty much the same sadly, maybe a little different. Hopefully it changes more once they up my doses at 6 months but I think I might be able to be content if they didn't though, maybe. I'm not sure yet.
| >>742973 because I felt intense dysphoria, and being a girl feels better and more natural to me. Taking hormones has been the best thing I've ever done tbh
| >>742979 I'm probably one of the lucky ones tbh. I've always looked pretty androgynous, a while back a few years before I started hormones I started taking pics and posting them on anonymous boards like this because I wanted to be a trap and needed attention lmaooo, I've made a tiny bit of money selling pics too. I present male at my job still (Im a waitress) but I actually get called ma'am really frequently, which Im happy about. I'm really hopeful that Ill be able to stealth soon
| >>742999 I might post pics later. I'm kinda really dysphoric rn and kinda having an amazing episode tho so maybe tomorrow or smth.
| Going for a type a cup size for your chest? Say B or C cups?
| >>743002 right now they're A cups, still small but they're noticable now!! To the point where I feel the need to slouch when I'm with my parents and not wearing a hoodie or smth because I don't want them to see lmao. I'm not sure how big I want them to end up, maybe B or even C cups I dunno lol! Whatever looks cutest on my body type ig, not sure what that would be. Small perky ones would be cute but it would also be fun to have big ones lol
| How old are you?
| >>743117 I told them I'm trans a few years ago, they hurt me rly bad because they didn't want me to be, so now I'm trying to transition without them knowing
| you're betraying your parents?
| >>743149 if you genuinely believe that, you should really think about that stance. What do parents have a right to force on their children, especially their adult children? If they hoped for a certain career, you marry a certain person, can they force you into it, make them some grandkids, etc... should they force you into it? People have a duty to not abandon parents in their old age, unless they're really abusive (which may be the case here) but not to destroy the self for them
| >>743166
You may go that route if you want your parents to disown you, you honorless wretch, they raised you and gave it their all just for you to spit in their face and throw it all to the wind. If my kid had your mentality, the only thing being an adult would change is that now they can live outdoors, 24/7.
| >>743168 i'm not op, op is a lowly wretch not an honorless one, you can tell by her id color. but yes, them making sacrifices for me is something i respect and reciprocate. That's different than giving them the right to wear me like a puppet, and you should reconsider your own view of parenting and what it's for if you view it as having a doll to mold through force rather than raising a person to do person things and live a whole life
| >>743170
I'm talking to you not OP... And you're not one to decide what I choose to do, stop being haughty... I believe in proper parenting that enabbles a person to become strong and able, no snowflake shit... I wonder which education OP's gotten.
| >>743175 so should kids be strong and able or should they be property who can't make decisions you disagree with?
| Op here, what the fuck lol this "honorless wretch" guy is obviously a troll if a bigot at that, just ignore them so they won't derail everything
| >>743192 christ, I hope you go away. Fuck off back to your mommy's basement like the good 30something manchild you are and get off a cyberpunk forum if you only like the cyber and can't handle the punk. please go to 4chan instead, or maybe the roof of a tall building
| >>743210
Wow you are so triggered. Then you call me a troll & a bigot while telling me to kill myself... wretch
| well OP, i hope it goes well for you...
I doesn't sit well with me that your parents don't know. You might get disowned.
Might want to do something before it's too late.
| >>743276 definitely. I'm scared of that. I've got lots to think about right now.
They've been pressuring me to tell them what my plans are for life. Idk if I should go to college because idk what I'd study, and if they find out about me then they'd stop financially supporting me and I'd be slapped with endless debt. On the other hand I can't really not go to college, they're adamant about it, won't even let me take a gap year. I honestly just want to move out, home is really scary
| >>743284 for me right now, and I'm almost always stressed when I'm at home. They also meddle in my social life, they won't let me hang out with anyone they don't know and approve of (and so my one friend I go out with is an artsy girl from the christian school they used to make me go to, thank goodness she's a lesbian and accepting of me or if have no one lol), and won't let me date at all. I feel really lonely honestly, I just want to leave home but idk how? If I got a roommie and
| Doubled my hours at work (idk if they can out me on for doubles though, they might not let me get more hours than the 20 a week Im getting now), then I could live in my city. Idk if living in my city is a good idea since I know almost no friends here and have a lot of history I don't wanna deal with. And there's the issue that I'll have to start presenting female at work sooner or later if I want to be able to stealth, but I might get fired if I do that. And there's not a lot of
| Trans friendly jobs in my city. It's a city but it's oklahoma city. Tbh I'm considering becoming a sex worker since there's a lot of chasers here but there's also a lot of people who'd want to hurt me in one way or another if I did that. If I get fired from my job though or if I get kicked out at home Im honestly considering it though, there's a couple guys who have offered to give me a place to stay in exchange for keeping them company lmao, not very attractive but they have money
| Honestly I just wish I could disappear rather than deal with this shit right now. I'm so exhausted and I feel mostly sad, scared, or nothing right now. Why can't I just have a comfy job and a nice apartment and someone who likes me for me lmao
| Jesus sorry for fucking ranting about myself on the internet, I know this ain't the place for it lol
| Have you considered getting an apartment with your lesbian artist friend?
Failing that, there are opportunities like habitat for humanity where they will feed and shelter you in exchange for positive volunteer work, or at least they did before covid.
And if you are in OK I know a femboy in a similar situation who is also looking to get out of their parents place.
Also, if they fire you because trans, that's illegal and a very expensive lawsuit for them.
| Do you realize all the shit this trans thing is doing to you?
| >>743323 I would move in with her, but A. She's a year younger/year behind me in school so she cant until next year, and B. She's got a girlfriend who she'd probably move in with before me, understandably.
I've thought about places like that but I'm always scared of them tbh, I hear they don't treat trans ppl that well
Who's your friend?? I need more queer friends lol I'm so lonely
And actually, state statutes don't prohibite lgbt discrimination, and OK is an at will employment
| State, so they could fire me for no reason of they disliked it and there's nothing I can do
| >>743366 I get trans people have higher suicide rates & stuff. But from what I've seen, the main cause of that is dysphoria & not being accepted. Being accepted as a normal person, especially by your parents, drastically reduces suicide rates. I know my parents will never accept so I'm trying to leave. I guess, transitioning is a choice, but being trans isn't. My brain will be like this no matter what I do, only difference is if I jump off a bridge because of it, or transition
| at any rate, i wish you a sane life removed from all the pain, OP. even though i much disagree with your ideas and choices. i just don't hate you enough i guess.
| As someone with a trans brother, I wish you nothing but the best, OP. I wish I could give you a hand (even a roof if I could), but this genderless being of the void lives far away (Argentina). Best of luck, and go get those perky tits!!!
| >>743390 I do accept myself. Used to not, I thought I was a gross, morally bad person for it. But over time I've learned to accept myself for who I am: a girl. I don't need you, random stranger, to respect me, because I already respect me.
| >>743422
say what you want, in the end it is fundamentally impossible for you to be a girl. you'll find out eventually.
| >>743424 I personally know 2 trans girls and 1 trans guy that pass 24/7 and have never told any of their new friends or coworkers about it and do just fine and are accepted as their genders with no questions asked. Those are just ones I personally know, there's thousands of people, you might know one who hasn't come out to you. So that's just incorrect
| >>743432 so, you're saying id be a girl even if I didn't pass? How progressive and kind of you, ty <3 glad to see you turn over a new leaf anon.
| >>743435 lol from now on I'm just gonna ignore you and people like you since I don't want this thread to get detailed anymore
PLEASE SEND SERIOUS QUESTIONS!! :D
| closing your eyes only works for so long.
good luck..
| have you tried prostate stimulation before? does it change the experience or feeling now with the meds?
| >>743495 I have actually, before and after starting meds. Sadly though, I don't think my fingers are long enough to get a good touch on it, and the dildo I bought was too big, I still can't really take it, I gotta try again soon since I have used my plug a bit and got thicker lube... But yeah haha. I hear the orgasms feel better, but after being on it for long enough your prostate shirnks so it's harder to reach. Interesting stuff.
| do you think your personality has changed over the course of your transition? either due to hormones or otherwise
do you think its going well so far?
what sort of plans did you make before starting your transition?
and finally, do you have a good, I guess source or network of people with advice that can tell you what you need to do for a transition?
| Might as well just start an onlyfans op, it's way safer and you don't actually need to show your face. I say go to college and just pick something that seems interesting. To be honest you'll be able to get way more job a with a college degree than you could with just a high school education and a sometimes it doesn't even matter what kind of degree you have as long as you have one.
Better to take the opportunities you get while you can rather than wait.
| If you just leave, get a roommate and do sex work you might end up unrecognizable to yourself in a few years. Your life may spiral into shit.
Even if your parents find out and they stop financing you they can't take back the money they already spent and you can always take a break from college after that. Stay optimistic and don't make any rash decisions.
| >>743540 very interesting questions ty! I don't think my personality has changed much, but definitely a bit. I'm definitely more emotional, which is saying something lol. It's honestly really nice, crying is cathartic to me.
I think it's going really well, I like the development so far, and I'm only 4 months in. I'm glad I started now that I'm 18 instead of waiting, I honestly regret not doing it as soon as I found out but it would be illegal and idk how much I trust grey market
| Drugs lol. So this was the fastest I could do it which I'm happy about... Im happy so far. I feel much less dysphoric, and have less brain fog. I'm still dysphoric and have bouts of depression or breakdowns but less than before.
I honestly didn't make many plans, I just felt so scared of developing any more masculine, just fucking thinking about it makes me feel DISGUSTING and honestly really angry lol, I've always been bad at planning stuff. I guess I hope to move out as soon as
| I'm done with highschool but that's the extent of my plans right now. And I don't really know many trans people at all. So I don't really have a network like that, especially not in real life. I could probably find a discord server with trans girls in it but it's not the same as real life and I kinda hate trans only discord communities, too many uwus and shit, makes me feel really take tbh? Idk if that makes sense lmao but yeah
| >>743578 I'm thinking about making an onlyfans but they don't make a lot and I'm popular on any socials. I'll probably end up going to college. I'm just so scared ig
| Do you feel confident going mtf? Did you have doubts if you want it? [I'm not trying to be discouraging of your decision]
| >>743607 I felt very confident tbh. I've known I'm trans since I was about 18, and my therapist i saw for a short time even diagnosed me when I was 17. I even prayer to god to make me wake up as a girl when I was younger than that lol. so I was sure I was trans. And all I wanted was to become more feminine and stop becoming more masculine. Anything that did that sounded perfect to me
| amongus
| >>743374
Ah well, best of luck to your lesbian friend. And at will employment is such bullshit. But maybe you and my femboy friend can work something out. Drop a disposable contact and I'll forward it to them.
| >>743851 Jade_Heart135 on kik. I might have a potential roomie now though, but I still wanna hang lol!
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